Love story :-)

 

Love story :-)

 

 

I have never held your hands so far,
or looked into your eyes to say how beautiful you are,
we have never gone out together
we rarely exchange love letters together.

The only means of communication between us is
through text messages, social media and a couple of phone calls,
when I tweet, you retweet,
when I post a status on facebook, you like,
but should it be just like that?
Love and liking should be more than that.

We are in a relationship
but why do I feel everything between us is restricted?
It feels like I am losing you.

Exist such distance between our hearts,
and obstacles since the very start.
Our separation sometimes makes me scared,
but why, why did you keep on reminding me
“Let us get ourselves prepared”.

I do not know, I do not know,
I am doubtful, are we in love?
Are we really, really in love?

Yes I know I am wrong,
I was just carried away,
seeing all the couples out there,
at the restaurant, at the park, at the movie theater,
caring each other,
kissing and hugging like no other,
man! That is romantic!
Seeing all at that,
makes me deprievd of my love story,

I’ve always wanted an perfect love story like in the movies,
but I need to stop and let it go,
As after every rainfall must come a rainbow.

I got to be patient,
the sweetnes of joy is always best tasted after we are tested,
this is not what God wants,
this is not what we want.

 

Yes, you are right,
we are deeply in love,
not in their assumption,
but in His definetion.

Neither holding our hands,
nor filling up our desired demands,
have defined a loving relationship,
but stated that bond as a abandoned ship!

Following the God is what we should do,
never ever give in to the feelings that aren’t true.

This is not our time to go beyond the boundaries,
but it’s time for us to equip ourselves with all the needed “expertise”,
we got to master a wide range of skills,
financial management, anger management,
Children’s education, automotive skills,
Cooking skills, house-keeping skills,
without these we are killed.

 

Love is everything that brings you closer to God,
and whatever brings you further from God is not love.

I’m looking forward for that day,
our union,
our synergy as one.
You will be my princess,
I’ll be your prince.

Baby,

we are in love.

You are my love.

 

   

Raat

Raat

 

 

Ek ajnabee sa ehsaas hai,

Ek dard dil mein ghav karta ja raha hai.

Teri yaad mein din dhalta ja raha hai

Raat dastak dene ko hai.

 

Kahin ye raat andhera na kar jaye,

dar hai mujhe kahin ye mujhe tujhse cheen na le jaye...

Ankhen hai num meri

saanse kuch chub se rahi hai...

Zakhm fir kuch ubhar se gaye hein...

Is tanhai ka ho raha hai ehsaas mujhe

 

Dil ke viraane mein ek dard sa hai uth raha aaj fir

Teri yaad mein har lamha har zrraa zrraa kamp jane ko hai..

Raat ki aahat dil ko sehem jane par majboor karti ja rahi hai.

Ye pal jaise mujhse kuch kehna hai chahta. Jaise mujhe dastak ho de raha.

 

Is waqt ke darmiyan aaj fir saannse kuch thami se ja rahi hein..

Tere intezar mein aaj fir raat hone ko hai..

 

Ek ajnabee sa ehsaas hai,

Ek dard dil mein ghav karta ja raha hai.

Teri yaad mein din dhalta ja raha hai

Aaj fir raat hone ko hai.

Life heading towards ????

Life heading towards ????


Back after almost seven to eight months...there is lot to write. Its getting difficult to move with the smoothness with which I moved all throughout my past. I am amazed or rather shocked  to see the time moving at a very unusual speed. Life's getting harder and harder, and people don't have much choices now but to move accordingly.

I left Convergys on 12th of may 2013 as I got the offer to join dell on 26th april same year. I was really happy about the offer that I got from Dell and was looking ahead. I joined Dell on 13th may and everything was going very smooth until the last day of my training. On the very last day of my training I and my batch mates were told to join a different process altogether with no training given for that process. It was shocking for me as I always thought that dell is a big brand and they cant even think of doing anything like this ,but in reality they were actually planning for it.  I tried to reach the top level management and they told same thing. At last I joined that process for which I never got the training and as a result of it ,I started doing mistakes. I started looking for options in the market as I was not comfortable with what I was doing there.It was unexpected for me and just to be on secure side I needed a job so that I can shift. After around ten to fifteen days, I cracked the interview with team computers for software engineer position and that was the same day when I resigned from dell on a bad note. Before leaving dell I informed every one in human resource dept. about what is happening inside dell ,they tried to lure me with some other positions but I resisted in leaving Dell as the impression that dell had on my mind before joining dell was now washed away.it was really a bad experience ..


Apart from my office life their were other things that also took place in this part ...my friends engagement was one of the important occasion that took place on 12th may. Satnam's now engaged with a girl from lucknow. A celebration in a family gives pleasure to all the Members of the family. And being his Friend i also attended the occasion and shared the pleasure. I drew immense pleasure being there in his engagement. I was really happy seeing my friend getting engaged. he is getting married on 24th November this year.One of my other friend Alkesh is also now engaged and his marriage is scheduled on 19th of jan next year .


So the pace at which life is actually moving is that what i am not able to maintain it or i am not sufficient enough to think beyond my inner life that's also kind of messed up these days. Its really frustrating when you fail to perform for yourself and look for options that on the first place are not meant for the situation in which you are in today.

In this bad phase of my life the only time that I lived and cherished was when I visited my sisters place in karnaprayag. Karnaprayag is really a nice small town situated between mountains near badrinath and around 450 km away from New Delhi. I went there in the month September .The weather there was amazing and people were so helpful and kind.
I visited lord karn temple and saw the rock on which he did tapasya for many years. I really enjoyed being there ,environment was so serene, amazing people , different kinds of flowers with mountains surrounding the whole city..it was treat to watch such kind of place.


October is on now.. and I am still in process of questioning myself...... just waiting for an answer that can really help me ,in me moving in right direction. I hope this wait pays off and pays off well..